Unseen blessings

Ever lost something, or can't do something, yet in that spare time you find something wonderful? I have. More than once even. Such events might mean losing precious or personal items such as your MP3 player, your internet access and such. It might happen in various ways even, ways that might be your fault, such as dropping that something, or totally not your fault. Like when you "Accidentally" dropped it, or its nature's fault. Yes yes, nothing's ever your fault, isn't it? =/

Ah well. In this case, I didn't have any batteries for my MP 3 player, back in school in the beginning of the year. That made me interact with people I have never interacted with in class. Hell yes, that small event is responsible for the group I have now, the group I totally adore and respect. And all in all, I have never regretted it.

For now, I'm wondering, I have a fucked down connection, now what is the blessing to it? Nothing much so far. Except I blogged a bit, changed the skin, re-liked a few people. Chatted more than usual. Heck, I feel good. A bit of internet drama from Ragnarok Online again, but hey, with positive stuff in that game to, nothing can get too bad... can it?

Ah well, I hope the lag ends soon. For the benefit of all people affected, especially the ones around the Asian continent.

Christmas eh?

Well well well, being more of the internet chatty guy with friends around the world, than the mere socialites that stick to locals, its interesting to see the contrast of Christmas between Singapore, and the rest of the world. The differences are actually very glaring, and we Singaporeans can almost envy these people not from Singapore. I almost can't stress how different we are, so I'll just list them out here, and possibly say why eh?

As you can see, Singapore is an Asian country. Modern or not, Singapore is barely 40-ish years old, and to treat Christmas like a culture for the entire country, than just a religious, Christianity-based celebration, takes quite a long time to be accepted. Most of the parents in my generation are still old fasioned, and the generation gap is wide. Christmas to them is but a Christian affair. I've grown up to accept that fact too, that is untill I came to the internet. I can notice some of the new generation actually celebrating Christmas as a culture. Its mostly up to the person, but why not? I mean, in this time and day, more holidays would be good. Its a hectic society, working and slogging your arse off. More public holidays to celebrate and revel in good fun and happiness will be good eh? And the spirit of giving should be... somewhat voluntary. Then again, its up to the people who celebrate.

Well, from what I've heard from my American friends, it is more of a culture, a community event that the entire country celebrates. of course, for a few select people, it is nothing more than an annoyance, in which I kind of understand why. I'm not going to list down why, just go figure out for yourselves, or you can ask me why.

Ah well, why? Why the enourmous contrast? I guess this gap will close in the coming future, or will it remain the same? We'll see eh? We'll see.

No one sees the title because of my skin. =D

Right right, I feel that I need to reinterate the reason for this blog existing, eh? Oh, I don't mind. Its always great to post something in this little, underused place. Then again, I also want to note that this blog is not a place where I state out my life. I have urges to, but not much. I might, but most of the time, no. I like my life to remain as private as possible, so people can still view me as having no life at all. Its fun. Yes yes, I don't need to tell them I went to an anime cosplay fair to watch nose-bleeding costumes everywhere. Nope, not at all.

At any rate though, this blog was created for the sole purpose of expressing myself to... whoever reads I guess. I have no idea how many, but doesn't seem to be much, counting from the amount of tags on my boards eh? Thats not too bad, isn't it? Well, it seems I used up too much fuel in my previous posts though, so posting will be slow untill I find a good piece of inspiration.

UNFORTUNATELY, GCE "O" levels are next year. That means my death is imminent, unless I start putting in some effort in my studies, in which I shall try to. Yes yes, for once I shall try. I might've failed, but it does't hurt to try again. Failing always hurts though. <_<

Well, thats my short post for today. I'm not going to put a notice up on my MSN. Later people.

Letsee...

Well yes, its been long than a month since I really posted. I've been a little caught up in my own little mental struggle. You know, the usual mental changes as you grow up. Probably my old young self trying to fight the more serious and mature side of me. I'm not sure myself, its an endless vortex of different emotions. Oh c'mon, everyone will get that sooner or later. Everyone will be emo at least once in their lifetimes. Its nothing to shy away from.

Of course, I'm aware how annoying some overbearing emotional people can be. And yes, it can get quite annoying. So for you emo people out there, do try to whine to the correct people. Whining to some happy go lucky guy might just get you branded as annoying, while expressing yourself to another of your "kind" might make you his or her next best friend. Ah, aren't people just wierd? I guess thats how people really are, attempting to shun off those who are too different, and rally people who are similar behind them, or rally people who have similarities.

Of course, whatever happened to the belief; Opposites attract?

Then again, not everyone shares the same beliefs, I guess. Either way, even a slight friendship can be bonded with anyone, unless they're a total asshole, in which I think you're more than free to walk up to him and confiscate his balls in the most horrid manner. Of course, if you need ideas on how to do so, you can always come to me. I might be able to suggest more painful methods to prolong his suffering.

Uh wait, now where was I...

But there are just some people who don't "Click" with you, I guess. For me, I can't mix with those of my own race sometimes. I wonder why. I mix alot better with the chinese ones. Or is it the other way around, and they just don't mix well with me?

Ah well, it doesn't matter much. At least I've got some friends of my own that I can really trust eh? Its better than having a few good-for-nothing pseudo friends that leech off your charisma, then leave you behind when you push them high enough up the ladder for them to go on their own. Selfish bastards.

At any rate, thats how it is. Its funny how some online internet game has lot more drama than real life. Thats when you start to notice that you don't have any life at all. Its pretty sad, really. But I'd rather have something on the internet that cheers me up, or stirs my spirit, than rot in reality on my own, don't you agree?

I don't think I'm the only one who agrees on this though. <3

Still, thats because school's out. Sure, I appreciate the break, but to the point my brain doesn't work anymore? Gee, thats going to suck. My typing speed increased alot for now. In return, my handwriting has worsened by a whole lot. Not that its not bad enough anyway. I wished I could type for every single assignment I do. I mean, I type almost 10 times faster than writing. Worst still, my handwriting sucks. As my mom says, it looks worse than the footprints of a chicken randomly scratching the earth looking for food.

Ah well, what can I say. My mom has wierd malay idioms. Of course, she has one favourite one she loves to use.

I'm a forgetful person at times, and I really, really suck at keeping track of where I keep things around the house. When I do however, she never fails to say this line;

"Goddamn it. If your balls weren't attached, I wonder where'd you put them!"

I love mom. She's so harsh, that when I come to school, the only swears that affect me, are the ones that directly swear at my mom. Thats when I attempt to rearrange some of his natural features. So far, no one has done it yet, unfortunately. I'd so love to see how I could do it on my own. Especially with my bare hands. Oh yes.

Well, that ends my random post for today, my thoughts just flowing as I write this. I might not post for another long time, but we'll see how things go. I poured everything into my previous posts already, goddamn it.

*shakes fist*

End of the year...

Well, months has passed since my previous blog entry, which also means many things have happened. Things that have made my day, be it a good one, or a very, very pathetic one. But then again, these things all teach you a certain degree about life, and its ups and downs. But no one can not admit, some of the things that happen in life, really suck. But have you ever wondered why you never treasure those happy moments? And would rather just have yourself shower in these moments? While you complain about crappy ones for god knows how long.

Well, there's no point hating crap happening to you, but never appreciating even a single bit of happiness thats in your life. I mean, you take pride in the major ones, but you let the little ones rain on you and take it for granted. Its funny how the human mind works in such a way. But I guess no one is perfect. But hey, who wouldn't like to be anyway.

Also, for the past few months, I've been calmer than I was. Handling the usual raging emotions with better control. But I still do get angry over alot of things. How I wished there were idiots who provoked me at the right time. I need some anger to be placed in good use anyway. Ah whatever.

Feeling...

Post replaced, I was dumb earlier on. Emo tendancies came back. Wootz <_<

Well, for the most part, I'm doing fine fine fine, better than ever. Just a little 1-2 months after the holidays. Got the blues. I miss holidays. D=

Imma post stuff when I can, so stay tuned <3

Everyone...

In a sense, the world was created the way it is, and believe it or not, its the most balanced yet perfect world, despite it having problems all over, and it seems that alot of people are infact, dying and so on and so forth. But all of this is part and parcel of life. I'll explain that in a second or so...

In a way, like most movies and lame-ass corny stories state, everything good must have something bad to balance it out. Just like how life must have its ups and downs. I strongly believe that in this world, everyone was created to do something, even if it might be generally evil in the eyes of others, it does make up job opportunities, and in a way, might actually do some good, even if it does alot more harm.

For example, some idiot goes on a rampage, hitting everyone in lets say, a coffee centre. It creates the need for someone to protect them. Poof, jobs created. Security guards, and the police once they detain him. For the people injured, poof, the paramedics are needed. See my point?

After a while, looking everything and a third point of view without bias and anything to cloud your mind might just be better at understanding the world. Trust me, it might be mofe fun than you think, in a way.

Like, litter bugs, which I think we are all familiar with, and a little bit of it is in all of us as well. What if we stopped throwing trash around? Would we still have cleaners and coolies? But also, this leaves one thing : Stereotyping is fucking stupid.

I place strong emphasis in the retardation of stereotyping in a negative way. Sure, stereotyping like lets say, the school jock, the joker, etc is fine. But things like the dumb ones or whatever from those who clean your trash everyday, is just crap. Everyone has a part to play, whether they clean your trash crap for you, or they serve as your maid. Everyone is equally important. I laugh at the stupidity, the blatent stupidity that some adults and a few of us teens place on marking people with such jobs, "stupid".

I believe instead, everyone will soon enough have a job to do, and a place to contribute in the society. Whats wrong about treating everyone fairly? Its not too bad to do. But face it even if your job sucks. You're still helping people in a way, are you not? For us who are still schooling, all we can do, is wait and do our work as students for now.

And yes, thats one thing I'm not exactly doing. I'm too much a follower of fate to actually do any work, but of course, I still do work. I'm not an emotionless savant or a certified psychiatrist. I'm still an average student who's physically unattractive. Just that I see things better for a reason, and I thank God for that gift. I hope everyone benefitted anyway. =/

Oh, I wrote this and sent this out a month ago. Please spread this to those you love, or you think might need this. I did send this out as an SMS a month ago as well.

Life is a thing we all go through, we all enjoy and savour.

Yet, at the same time, hate and loath. Its a journey that involves everyone around you, whether you know them or not.

But sadly, not everyone knows that life is a journey that we are all going through together.

They think they suffer all alone, and they wallow in their pain.

Some were made to lead, some were made to follow, some are pretty, some are not.

Some were made to listen, some, to talk.

Everyone is made out with a little bit of everything, but also a little bit more of something.

So don't be afraid to share, but don't forget to care.

You might just end up with someone you love.

Pass this around at your own free will, you needn't force yourself. =3

As you age...

As you get older, everything doesn't seem the same anymore. You start to think more, understand more, and depending on who you are, your curiousity for such things and emotions might either diminish, or get magnified. But in the end, everyone gets mature, just at different ages and at different gradients...

About a year or two back, I spoke about being happy about the one you love. Oh how innocent I sounded, and how simple it seemed. I remember staying that if someone you love was happier with someone else, it was best to accept it, and be happy for her. I now know the feelings involved in such an occasion. The jealousy, the rejection, the self-affliction. Heck, its not even a pleasent scenario for me anymore. But it proves that every single day, I mature and learn something new. This goes for everyone, and those who successfuly commit suicide, are missing out on many things in life they could have experieneced...

However, this is how it may seem. We do not know what goes on in their heads, exactly how pressuruized they feel. It is true everyone has the same pain threshold, but mentally, that is not exactly true... Depending on how sensitive that person is towards the subject, it could either be devastating, or a minor setback, or even nothing at all. Its amazing how the human mind can control your emotions, and that triggers your hormones... and sometimes, vice versa.

And if there's something everyone can't do, is to unlock the secrets of the opposite gender. Sure, we can get to know their obvious perferences (all straight asexual boys will love naked women for example <_<),>

But with understanding, comes the real part of maturity: How you react to it. That is the final step towards maturity, other than how are you going to take it, like a complete wuss, or like a man. This of course, refers to men. I have no idea how you women would phrase it. =/

The rest, is up to you to figure out. Where's the fun in telling you everything eh? All I can do, is to just slightly clear the mist, and help you understand life a little better. For those reading, thank you, and may you think over this carefully. =3

Hmm...

Heh, a glance at a few other people's blogs, and you can see that their lives isn't just as simple as you think. Raging emotions, urges, feelings and relationships with other people. You know, they happen anyway. Its just that sometimes, it might just have an impact on others too.

At any rate, I'm grateful for having a simple, yet boring life. And its simple, just don't even care about the negative things. Sure sure, easier said than done. But who said it was impossible? Even then, as teenagers, and as a feeble human being, everyone has their limits to controlling emotions. So don't be discouraged if you do succumb once in a while. But there's a difference between noticing a comment that means you have to change for the better, or just something to put you down. Whoever cares about what other people you don't know think of you? Its not as if they will matter in your lives anyway. Even if they might in the future, leave it to fate. For the time being, they don't matter.

Its like taking the Apathetic part in being emo, but without being selfish, and caring for others if they need to. And yes, even if you might not know them, but being the reason of making someone's life more entirely easier for that day, is just good for you in one way or another.

Still, this road is razor-thin, and you have to stick to the middle path. But of course, no one can run away from the inevitable choices you might have to make in life. Just be warned, every choice you make, may be similar to opening Pandora's box. Heck, it might just affect your life, or the way you feel about yourself or someone else...

Yep, it can be as simple as reading a crush's blog entry. =3

So watch out what you ask for, or what you might want to read or do. It might just affect a long period of your life.

So whenever you see someone stuck in a rut, do ponder about it. It might just be that he or she "deserved" it one way or another, or fate has just something in store for 'em...

Good luck in life's journey now. =3

Well...

Today was a good day. A better choice I made in the morning, was wearing red undies. Really did bring me good luck 'till the end of the day. Not alot of people know why eh? =) Either way, the day was all good. All smiles, even during maths. It was one of the best school days even though it didn't seem like it. Ah well, thats school and love for you I guess.

And I'll start reforming myself too. =)

I'll have to start on a few basic religious things, but also my own self at the same time. so sure, holistic well-being they call it. But even then, I can't throw away my own personality because of that, can I?

Nothing much to share. =P

Its been one heckova month with emotional turnarounds. Part and parcel of growing up eh? Its funny that for the three weeks of this month, all I felt was jealousy, lonliness, anger and self-rejection. Only on one fateful day a few days back, I kind of... let it all out. =)

So yeah, I'm pretty much accepting everything I see. Even for the girl I like, she has her own likes, hates and dreams. I can't wish for everything to be my way if it wasn't meant to be. And realizing this made me happy. Sure, it hurt, but in the long run, it'll be the foundation for every single relationship I have. Be it just friends, or anything more or less.

School sucks as usual, so I guess I can leave it at that. So... yeah. Ciao anyways. ^^

Well, I guess its been a long holiday week, and I didn't post anything. Thats because there was nothing to post about. I would have posted about the debate camp... if I had even gone there. Stupid CCA had us so restricted. Its bad enough Brillante practices take up twice a week, with remidials, and the goddamned Clean and Green also taking every single free time we all have.

Only thing we can look forward to now is the Sec 3 Adventure Camp next week, I guess. We have lots of obstacles to go through before we even get to go, but I guess thats just one of the few disadvantages I guess.

Well, thats about it. Ciao.

Great.

The days seem to get worse and worse. First, they changed the friggin, stupid debate camp briefing to SATURDAY INSTEAD OF FRIDAY. That means I have to go for Social Studies anyway. It isn't that bad, but I hate something or someone taking my Saturday away from me. T_T

But maybe we can make that positive. Hopefully. Maybe an outing. I'll see what I can cook up with the rest.

And the Clean and Green dance is back. Not again. I like it, I like the $100 I might win, but other than that, the practices are going to get worse.

It just gets more tiring and tiring by the day.

This is one hell of a hectic week. The whole week is just. Ow. There's literally no breaks. Physics remidial, followed by Dance and Drama on Monday. Today's the Brilliante rehearsal, Tomorrow's maths remidial+ Dance and drama, thursday's POA remidial + Read Along Programme and friday's Social Studies. Just ow.

-Too lazy to think of anything else.

^_^

Yesterday, Angela came by at around 1.40 to do some homework. Originally, it was supposed to be her and Khai Yin to celebrate my birthday, but since Khai Yin couldn't go out because her mom disallowed her since she almost lost her voice a few days back, Angela had to come alone. But the birthday plans where pushed to Monday. I can't wait!

Of course, she still came by and we did some homework instead. I supervised her doing Exercise 7c since she wasn't here last Thursday when the homework was issued out. I gave her a cup of Coke Lime to drink, as well as one glass for myself. My mom also cooked nuggets for both of us. As she did her work, we left the computer on for 2 reasons; The lack of a calculator and for some music. It went on fine. Around 3.20 or so, we went on making people confused over both of us. Since we used two different types of messengers to chat, but we're still on the same computer. Soon after, Gilroy asked us to play some Gunbound. And so we did.

I played for Angela as she logged in her account. We played with Gilroy, Wen Wei, Cheryl and Lee Shen. No one noticed the difference of skill in her for some reason. So as I played, she typed out the chats so that it wouldn't be too conspicious. At times, I'd just try to impersonate her. After about almost 2 hours, everyone had to go, so we went off again, and looked at some websites as we continued on to finish her work.

When we were done, she got on that 3D pinball thingie all Windows XP computers have. When she played, she had a total of 400,000++ points. When I tried, I had about, 1,000,000+ points. Bully? Maybe, XD

Soon enough, my mom and dad departed for the Giant Superstore at Bedok Interchange, and told me to switch computers since it had been on since like, 9.45 AM, and it was about 6PM+. So I did.

The other computer was pretty empty. But still better in terms of specs than the other one I was using. So she went on blog-surfing, showing me blogs and commenting on the different bloggers. I had a few to show off too anyway. ^_^

Well yeah, I was alone with her in the house for an hour, doors locked, only two lights on and....

Well, I was a brother to her. Don't get the wrong idea. XD

Soon after, at about 9 or so, her mom called to fetch her home. So I followed her down just in case, and sent her off to her mom while I hid in the lift she took. =P

After about 20 minutes at home, bored while surfing the internet, my mom came back with HONEY CHICKEN. Holy yum. Its good enough she cooked CHICKEN RICE for the day.

Welp, I guess thats all. ^_^

Blarg.

Today was the average/ok day at the least. I'm still having problems with saving money. Ugh. I've gotta start planning and eating less. I'm already on a stringent meal by eating like, 2 chicken paos for reccess if I need to. I sometimes eat my $1.50 or $1.80 plate of chicken rice, and I keep needing to buy stationary. Ugh. Its been happening since last year. I gotta change that. I swear I feel angry at myself for alot of things, but this has got to be the one that annoys me the most.

Well, on the bright side, at least I can jog 4 rounds around the field on an almost-constant pace. I'm happy at least my training has paid off. Sure, its only my breathing. My legs can stand the work.

I also hate having the responsibilities of a Class Chairman. Its cool, sure. But it sucks too. XD

Today's assembly was great, with a few people acting out about how not to feel ugly, and the truth of relationships and stuff. It was really meaningful to people of our age. Well, at least thats what I think. Sure, it was slightly dumb, but I guess thats how we all think it is eh?

The rest of the day went on as normal. Along with the read along programme.

Before I stop due to my fatigue, I'd like to add one little comment.

Postitude > All.
Good ol' Mr Teo made that mistake well. Positive Attitude became Postitude. Woot.

Right, later.

Dance and drama...

Despite being one of the more "successful" CCAs, by performing at a few occasions, and getting Gold With Honours at the Singapore Youth Festival at its first time there, most people don't really see behind the scenes of the CCA. Sure, we have our bright points. But we really only practice when the instructor's drilling our ass out. Rarely do we do that anymore without the instructors. Sure, its possible, but its alot more slacking.

I'm not surprised its been like this since I've joined, and now I'm sec 3. I wonder what the current batch is thinking.

I mean, my batch was lucky. Straight after we went in, we had a dance to do, which was the skeleton of the SYF dance we did a year later. It was still satisfactory. I kind of miss those days. It was better than the present one, if I'm not wrong. I can't say why, but it just is. Either way, I can never mix in with the rest, even the newer sec 2 or sec 1s. I guess its just me eh? =P

Welp, nothing much to say, other than to complain about the sometimes-irregular practice that can seriously drain up your free time for the week, and your energy. Sometimes, it fucks up your mood too. But then again, it has probably given me loads of CCA points due to my participation in most events, so I guess might as well stay for another year... I'll be busy for O levels next year anyway.

Lets think back!

Well, shit. I fell asleep and didn't go cycling afterall. Way to go! =.=

Either way, I guess it isn't really that bad. I have a mind to do that tomorrow anyway. A good cycle around Bedok, catching some wind and some sights with my MP3 blasting music right into my ear drums. Wished I had a camera though. If I had one, I'd be one heckova avid photographer. =P

Alas, unlike MP3s, they're expensive. Way, expensive. So for the time being, I'll just be content with my mind as they savour every good scene I see on my way around town.

Oh, I went off topic. Hehe.

Well, as the title suggests, I'll be looking back at the events of the past week, and maybe posting things I forgot to post, or just didn't bother to. If there isn't anything to post, then I'll just post something. We'll see. XD

Now, lemme think... I didn't really complain about the lame-ass english classes every tuesday, don't I? I agree its a waste of time too. But I guess it can't be helped. I mean, nothing can be overly perfect, can it? Nope, and I guess thats one of the few things that we can't do anything about. I did manage to eat a whole box of salad as he was teaching. He's that slow, basically. XD... OR I have a ninja's speed. 0_0 The former, alright?

Now, Thursday. How can I not post it? I must've been too angry or too... distracted. Alright, here goes. Shortly after that little confrontation, Angela, Jun Yuan and Jaselyn and I went off to Sumo house. Zhen Hao was SUPPOSED to be there, but for some reason, he told me afterwards he and a few friends went off to Long Johns instead. Ugh. I hate that place. It only has a few nice things to remember about though. ^_^

Right. I now remember why I didn't want to post this. I didn't want to embarass the couple already. XD

Well, I'll give a short summary then. At Sumo House, we recieved a Complimentary dish of chicken, something they give to customers who come in their school uniforms during school days. Cool. *hint hint* I had a bowl of cold noodles, but stupidly forgot to add the friggin soup. So I ate cold noodles with the wasabi and ice. I sipped the soup up later... I drank it like tea actually, but... =P

Well, Angela doesn't like spring onions for some reason. I mean, why not? They absorb the air in your stomach. As we discussed why, Jaselyn added; "You know, I rarely fart."

Yeah, and so we laughed.

They wouldn't believe me when I said that though. So I warned them not to come to me if I had went to some quiet corner. =/

As we finished our food, some remnants of soup were left. Jun Yuan took Jaselyn's soup (yes, she did drink it) and drink it. As a dare, she added lots of chilli powder. Jun Yuan practically chocked. I finished that soup within one gulp. I had to say it was pretty much a good challenge.

My mom's cooking is worse. XD

And so, we went to Tenchi, but due to nothing to see there, we decided to go to Comics Connection instead. There, Jun Yuan was pointing out some amulet; two halves of a moon with faces on it. Both magnetic and stuck to each other. He did hint that he wanted to buy that for someone. *cough cough* When I showed him an "I <3 You" Amulet, he said. "It'll be great if she *refering to jaselyn* buys that for me"

You get the picture.

After that, we deftly sent angela home, before the three of us pressed on to Yu Neng for our Read along Programme to teach primary 1 kids to read. Jun Yuan managed to shelter her from the rain with her file, so yay for him eh?

Happened at thursday, if you didn't notice.

Argh, tired. Toodles!

Boring.

Today was one of the more boring days of the week, with literally nothing fun to do. It was the basic teaching, listening, note writing, and the easy-peasy Physics test which I'd probably get over 25... over 30. Its just that easy. Other than that, the day was boring enough to not permit a frigging blog entry. But I'd do it anyway. Its just what I like to do maybe. I don't have anything else to do, sadly. *shrugs*

Yeah, so far, I seem to like shrugging alot.

Either way, Samuel seemed to be better today, especially after his 2 day MC after having a high fever. He missed alot of tests, sure. Hopefully, he can study up to par...

Yeah, I went out with him earlier on at 6+ and went to the arcade for an hour or two for some boring fun. Ever since they closed down the arcade near Sumo House, I've got not much of a place to go.

So yeah, played some Daytona, tried some games, ate some sushi, and of course, we drank bubble tea. Mmm mm...

Blah...

Started the day with a lousy time to wake up at. 6.45 in the morn sucked. Sure, I mean, I wasn't late for school. But i missed a precious 30 minutes where I can read up and maybe have a chance at passing my maths. In this case, I had nil. Either way, I did arrive on time, and managed to settle everything within a short time period. But hell, the day managed to have a perfect balance of "suck" and "great".

PE was utterly boring, and I only managed to get the ball for rugby once. I screwed that up by mistiming my catch. And the ball dropped on the ground. Ugh, might've scored too. The whole one hour for maths later on was... bad.

During reccess, a pair of lovebirds, along with a few of their friends decided it was good to stay back during reccess. So they did... in my class. I didn't really want to chase them out, so I took the whole reccess to sweep up, organize my stuff and the like, you know. I was hungry, but since I had somewhere to go later, I wasn't going to eat anyway.

Still annoyed me to a point, since I was pretty much alone for the whole 30 minutes up in there. But it wasn't much of a big deal. English was... so-so. Nothing much there.

Ah, Pure Geography was fun. The trainee teacher had us outside the AV room for 15-20 minutes, due to the other's noise. I was pissed off due to the heat, and the friggin inability for the rest to keep quiet for just one, friggin, minute. That was all the teacher asked for, and I didn't think we got any closer to that, before she decided to give up, and let the class in anyway. It was a mixed class, so I'm not going to state the obvious. =P

It was horrid. The noise was so goddamned annoying. I couldn't even focus on what she's teaching. Sure, she ain't that good in handling teenagers like the ones in the current mixed class. But that wasn't a reason good enough for them to blatently answer back, did it? I'm wondering why they just don't put themselves in the teacher's shoes. Doing that just made me boil up more.

If the chatter wasn't bad enough, they start howling like wolves for some reason. After 5 seconds of incessent howling, I shouted a simple, "Shut up!"

Sorry if Angela, Huda, Farhana, Jun Yuan, Pei Zhi, and Rachel got a little deaf in one ear for a while. ^_^

So they started talking about bangla's and stuff, and I screamed out a second time. "You want bangla you come ar!"and a friend of mine was telling me that they were asking me where I came from. As the teacher settled them down, I couldn't give a shit. I was copying some crap anyway. Gotta use that window of opportunity.

Oh sure, I did get confronted later on, while Wee Yang managed to dissuade him from persuing the matter any longer... For the day.

*shrugs*

I knew it had to happen someday, but I guess it just did today eh?

Well...

Today was alright I guess. Not really anything much to say, since nothing fundamental or big had happened today. I'm dead tired though. Well, if there was two events that sapped my energy, it would be the Clean and Green dance/cheer competition and the practices for the Brilliante 2006. I mean, dancing like that for a few times in a row? Oh hell no, I get tired by the second or third run. You'd understand if you were to try it out.

At least I'm not in most of the parts in the first Gloria Estefan dance. That would kill my brain. Not that its not killing my joints already.

If there's one large disadvantage my CCA would have, is the lack of time and freedom. I mean, if you dance good, you get lots of CCA points, sure. But that also means you're in demand for external events or school events. Its funny when I want to tell you that our Monday and Wednesday practices are usually not including events such as teachers day or the like. It rarely does. So yeah, that means irregular practices that can go up to every friggin school day. That means less study time, and you know what that means. Ugh.

Yeah, and I should focus on losing some weight now. I have enough stamina to do that now at least. TAF club gives me a reason to actually run without looking too stupid at the same time, so I'm happy for that... In a way. Its not as if I have time for that at all, with the dance recitals taking way my free time. I might just have to start using my weekends, something I don't really like either way. But with my new bike, I guess that'll have to do eh?

My handphone's been silent for a few weeks too. I guess once the contract ends this year, I'll cut it, and get a simcard. Its waste of friggin cash to pay $20 a month when I barely use $8 a month. I guess thats ONE advantage of being a bit anti-social.

Oh, speaking of anti-social, i'll SCREW being anti-social too. ^_^

Yeah, That means forgetting about every single depressing stupid poem I've ever written. I mean, sure, they're nice and all. But they're all sad and crap. I really have to let them go if I'm going to be a more positive person.

Sooo yeah. Tata~

Grawwrr!

I am NOT pleased with my english comprehension marks! Yeesh, I swear to god, I just lost like 3-4 marks on elaboration that I could've fixed. The other 6-7? Those were things I really couldn't do. Hell, that made me pissed for a certain part of the day, and I apologize to anyone who was affected, namely Samuel Ng and Low Khai Yin. No idea if Joan actually noticed. XD

Sorry anyway.

On a positive note, I was 1 mark away from full marks for my other POA trial balance test, third in class for the total grade. I wonder what happened to it. Probably something about the line for the ending part of the trial balance, but we'll see. Not getting any papers back so far anyway.

Well, Chemistry test tomorrow so lets all hope for the best for the whole level who would be attempting the test. ^_^

On a side note, there are hints of lovey dovey stuff happening in class. What I meant, was hints that
SOME people are starting to get along preeeety well. Oh yes, barely into the second month, and this is what we get eh? Oh wait, Secondary 1 was somewhat similar, so I guess I shouldn't whine. As I said in class before, "Wakao, heart pain ah!"

Toodle-loo!

-Shaft

Letsee now...

Today wasn't too bad, hell, it was one of the more funnier days of the year... hopefully. XD It started off pretty good, with me and Samuel surely getting good grades for our POA, but kind of sucked as reccess got on. We got scolded for our mediocre Social Studies scripts, and for our incessent talking during Maths. Ugh.

Other than that, it was pretty happy lally after school during Physics class. I don't even want to know when the Khai Yin and Samuel Ng feud would last. But then again, a serious saggitarius with a lofty pisces? Can't really blame them much. But screw star signs anyway, not like I even know them.

Well, due to that, pretty much skipped sitting with Zakiyyah and Khai Yin and instead sat with Angela and Jaselyn. Not a bad choice either. We talked for an hour straight and did some work while we were at it. (Hopefully) Lots of perverted stuff came out of my mouth, and also Jun Yuan's mouth. But what can we say? 2/1 was full of guys with mentalities like us, so we're pretty much one of a kind. The girls who were with us on the table? Angela was innocently blur. Jaselyn's face was soooo red. Think fresh fuji apple.

Wait, before I start to THINK about the flavor of her face, lemme start thinking of something else...

This week's pretty eventful, with the coming of the rehearsals for the Brilliante 2006, Clean and Green week and some tests coming up. I think I can feel the pressure brushing against my friggin spine. Ugh.

Kthxbai.

(Pronounced as Kay, Thanks, Bye. Not kthnnkksssbai)

Ah well...

Can't seem to make up my mind, can I? I guess that is what happens when you get too messed up with puberty and stuff. Yeesh, tell me about thinking straight when I can't even do that nowadays. Especially after failing Physics, Chem and maths. Ugh.

But then again, thats just normal for school, right? Well, hopefully. I plan to score well this year. I've slacked enough... wait, I've slacked TOO much last year that it's become a very, very stubborn habit. Hell, its a friggin thorn in my neck. But I guess if I can find a reason to do so, I will.

And yeah, I guess I did. Its a certain person, but I won't say who. Just for her, I'll change, and I'll succeed. Alright, no promises for maths or mother tongue, but I think I can handle the rest... Not quite.

Lets just say, I'll do better than last year, alright?