Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Thanks to Melissa for showing me this back long ago. Just remembered about it a day ago.



Touching eh? The handshake in the vid... Maybe used for October. XD

Monday, August 25, 2008

Split between entities in a single body.

The person you want to be.

The person you're born to be.

The person you're raised to be.

Consolidating them into a single consciousness, but no matter what you do, they end up splitting up into two halves. The conscious half, and the unconscious half. Both equally positive and negative, yet mixed up. Positives of different entities and negatives of different entities, all equally distributed among the two trains of thought running through my heart and soul. They exist like twin dormant volcanoes, creating a unique landscape of your characteristics and personality. Making you stand out from the rest. Sure, you're similar in many aspects, but different as well, due to the strange, yet equal mix between the positives and negatives of both consciousnesses.

And when both don't get along, watch them erupt like never before. Yet, your soul struggles to keep the eruption in check, holding it in, as your body reacts by being jaded, empty, apathetic to most.

But every single time they erupt, they grow even larger, previous layers of ash piled up after multitudes of eruptions.

Will they finally grow tall enough, that an eruption wouldn't be as violent as they used to?

Would they finally grow and shape themselves as a single volcano?

Time will tell.
Maybe I should just blog about my days and feelings for the day, rather than wait for some overly complicated epiphany before I write stuff. XD

Things started as usual, with me sighing as I dragged my ass to the toilet to bathe and all, getting myself nicely dressed and perfumed before I headed out. Met Lya, and skipped off to school. Chatted as usual, despite the MRT being totally crowded for some reason today. As people tell you things, sometimes, you wander off in your own thoughts, distracted by the possibilities that might happen. What if that situation happened to you? Possibilities, placing yourself in the shoes of the people who are involved, be it the very person telling the situation about you, the victim, or the consoler that probably told her what to do.

Maybe your opinions might have differed. Maybe you'd agreed and would've said the same thing.

Then again, you also wonder.

"Why the hell is my life so uneventful?"

Sure, yawn every single day, shake your legs and spend hours listening to game Soundtracks, music and whatnot, just whittling time away, waiting for the moments that truly matter, or when people need you.

Why not right? XD

Leading a carefree life of "Fuck it" to most obstacles, but dealing with them as you go along with life with the most appropriate amount of effort and passion, BUT as though looking as if you used the LEAST effort and had the least wear on your emotion. Thats the person I want to be, I can be and WILL be.

I want to be there for people, to help them along the way. To see them being successful when they can. Me? I guess I'll just lead a good, stable life. I can't really ask for more.

A girlfriend? A wife?

Bonus options, maybe. But not a requirement. XD

I always say that I'm meant for the older generation. Just work in some bloody farm, get a wife, work work work, get some babies, work work work, get my children to work for me, die of old age.

I mean, its simple. XD

Tuesday, August 05, 2008

Agree or Disagree?

Instrumentals can possibly help more than lyrics do for the damaged soul.

For lyrics, you start UNDERSTANDING what th song is from the lyrics. You start relating, reminding you of certain things that might make you feel worse or calm you down. But being a mixture of both, it usually slows down the healing process, no matter how soothing it might feel. Instrumentals, including rock/metal ones, not just the classics, are different.

The understanding is subconscious, not obvious. You either calm down or get worked up, but from the inside, meaning the rate of it happening is much more gradual, natural. The emotions evoked from the notes, the beats, the rhythm is natural, coming from a time when before language was formalized into the norm. This is almost the opposite of spoken words, which are structured and limited only to the song that encases them.

I wouldn't say that Instrumentals are more powerful. Lyrics can be more powerful because it strikes your conscious. You know what you listen to; The meaning is literal. It strikes you while you are fully awake, triggering the emotions. Instrumentals however, bring you from the inside-out instead, further enhancing its ability to therapeutically make the person feel better.

Random thought. Comments? D=