Ah well. Thats me on Sunday. Har har. Maybe I'll use a pic before every post like what a few of you guys suggested. Just like everyone else eh?

Well, otherwise... People think I've been sad or I've been hiding something from everyone else, or think that I'm disappointed with myself for being sacked from the Monitor position and all. No, I'm not feeling anything actually.

Just... blank. XD

Please understand; I have my own different sides too. ^^

Nothing much to post; I'm still blank.

Shaft, out.

Another. MEMEMEMEMEME. WHYYY.

Once again, because of the different questions, I'll do it.

And due to boredom

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#1 If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?

-Angry, Sad, Bitter, Vengeful

#2 If you can have a dream come true what would it be?

-... Yeah, hunk.

#3Do you believe in being in love forever?

-Laughable, blah blah.

#4 What do you want your friend to be like?

- Hurr. If they like me, I like them. :3

#5 What's your ideal lover like?

- Just someone who loves me, someone nice.

#6 Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?

- Being loved by someone.

#7 How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?

-Kinda depends. Not that long actually.

#8 If the person you secretly liked is attached, what would you do?

-If she's happy, I'm happy. But bite down whatever negativity that emerges.

#9 Is there anything that make you unhappy these days?

- The fact I feel that I'm not dependable enough.

#10 If you have a choice, what kind of family would you want to be born into?

- ... Maybe if I had a younger sister...

#11 Is being tagged fun?

-Not when its for quizzes. >_>

#12 How do you see yourself in 10years time?

-... Shaft. Duh.

#13 Who are currently the most important people to you?

-Myself. My friends. My family.

#15 Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?

-Single and bloody rich.

#16 What's the first thing you do every morning?

- Sigh.

#17 Would you give all in a relationship?

- Take it slow, one step at a time.

#18 Do you live to love, live to hate or live for the sake of living?

-I live because... I'm alive.

#19 What type of friends do you like?

-... Friends. Rofl.

#20.If you're feeling low one day, who will you go to?

-Myself.

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DO IT IF YOU WANNA. DAMN IT.

ANOTHER MEME!?

Tell me about it. -sighs-. But I'm bored, and the questions are slightly different, so hey. Why not?

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Instructions: Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question. Make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list.list them out at the end of this post.Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.


1. At what age do you wish to marry?
Huh. 25 and above?

2. What do you want the most now?
Just to lose some weight.... and cash.

3. Who is the person you trust most?
Myself.

4. List any 3 things about the person who tagged you.
Good, trustworthy and protective.

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
Being a Hunk? >_>

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
Nope.

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
Sanity.

8. Do you believe in eternal love?
Laughable.

9. Are you going to Streetfest on 25th May?
Part of the Free Hugs team. >_>

10. What are the requirements that you wish from your the other half?
Fun, yet mature. Understanding.

11. Which type of person do you hate the most?
Obnoxious people, physical perverts and people who mess around with my friends and family.

12. Do you cherish every single of your friendship?
If the other party does, then so will I.

13. Do you believe in God?
Mmhm.

14. What do you see in your future?
Loneliness.

15. Do you find it a need for you to have a boyfriend /girlfriend?
I would -need- one to be truly happy, but its not exactly a need for survival, or to contain my sanity.

16. At this point of time, would you rather stay in your comfort zone or try something new?
Either.

17. What kind of friend you hope to be in your friends' eyes?
Someone dependable at all times.

18. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?
-presses on flab- Yarr.

19. What's your weak point ?
I'm somewhat of a hyprocrite.

20. What are you doing now?
Eating. (Duh)

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ONCE AGAIN...

Do it if you want to.

Inability.

Sometimes, you feel that you have this certain responsibility to keep the people around you happy. You'd love to be the one to do so, to be that very person to paste the smile on their faces. Or at the very least, even if its not a smile, manage to help them with whatever weight thats on their shoulders. True, there's no exact obligation to do so. But in a way, the responsibility is there. Just because you're friends.

And sometimes, when they don't react well, you feel as if you haven't done enough. Maybe you weren't good enough. Or maybe you feel you aren't... good enough as a friend. Sometimes, you feel bad that another person did it before you did. You feel inferior. True, its not exactly a competition. But the high standard you've placed on yourself to be that kind of friend to them, is enough to kill a small part of yourself.

Sometimes, I wished I wasn't this way. Cheerios.

-Shaft

Introduction.... Again.

Don't ask me WHY I'm introducing myself again. Maybe its because everytime I do so, I feel like a totally different person from before? I think this is probably the third time... Its not my lifestory, I think I have that barely 5 posts below or something. >_>

I'm someone who's carefree. I don't get myself pulled down by the troubles of others, or if everyone else gets sad, thats their problem. Not mine. I try to remain calm, composed and if possible, reliable at all times, no matter what the situation, question or problem. Of course, I also want everyone to succeed, and most importantly, smile and enjoy their lives. I wouldn't call myself best suited for the task, or if I'm a busybody for doing so...

But hey, so far, no complaints eh?

But in the end, I'm not so perfect. My past is far from perfect. I've fucked up my fair share of things as well. And the only reason I'm like this now, is because of all the experiences I've carried and brought with me through all the negative experiences, all as positive reminders, if possible. I'm an introvert, yet an extrovert. I'm a walking piece of contradiction. Maybe I'll elaborate on that someday. And people say my posts are too long and don't make much sense. D=

Comments? T_T

Doing this lame quiz (called a meme). Just doing this because she asked me to. >_>

1.How many children do you want?
- 2.

2.What you want the most now?
- A companion.

3.What do you want to be when you grow up?
- Someone who helps people, or is able to make the people around me smile.

4.If you can have 1 more dream to come true, what would it be?
- Maybe having less fat on meh body. >_>

5.What are you afraid to lose now?
- My sanity, my self-control.

6. Do you believe in being in love forever?
- Why not?

7.If you meet someone you love, would you confess to him/her?
- On the proper timing. Otherwise, no, or rarely so.

8.What would you do when you're feeling down and depressed?
- Just get some private time for myself to regain my composure, self-control and move on with my life.

9.What are the requirements that you wish from other half?
- Sincerity.

10.Which type of person do you hate most?
- Arrogant people, or selfish people.

11.Do you cherish every single of your friendship?
- Of course.

12. How do you feel about life now ?
- Could be worse. Gonna treasure every single bit of it.

13.What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
- Self-Control.

14.Do you find it a necessary for you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
- Its always a bonus.

15.What do you want your friend to be like?
- As long as I feel good being around with them, it's good enough.

16.What kind of friend do you hope to be in your friends' eyes?
- That guy we can trust and rely on.

17.If you have a change, which part of your character would you like to change?
- The aspect of procrastination.

18.If you're feeling low one day, who will you go to?
- Myself. Rofl.

19. Best childhood memory?
- Innocence, the lack of problems on my mind.

20. Are you happy with what you have in life right now?
- Always.

Instructions: Remove 1 question from above, and add in your personal question to make it a total of 20 questions. Then tag 8 people in your links list them out at the end of the post.Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

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Do it if you want. I'm not gonna impose it on anyone. Thats just not... me.

Whispers From The Heart

Back to what this blog was intended for; Thoughts, rather than rants about my life. I still will post random events in my life if I want to, on random intervals I guess. But otherwise... Yeah. Those kind of things get boring right? Not everyone wants to know your life story, but they want a place to contemplate and see views of the world from different angles or something.... Or I'm encroaching on the subject of chiminology again. >_>

Otherwise, I can confidently say that I'm probably, more or less, much happier than I was back then, on the posts that I have typed down and posted for the past two years or so. Heck, the posting rate was pretty low then. Its possible to read my entire blog in a sitting actually. And eh, if you want me to recall whatever event triggered me to do so, feel free to ask. I've got a wonderful long-term memory for names, events and small minor niches in life, but to balance it off, a wonderfully crappy short-term memory that somehow, rarely picks up homework.'

"WRITE IT DOWN IN A NOTEBOOK", the teacher would use to say. In the end, I end up not doing any of it again anyway. And when she demands the reason why, I can only meekly retort.

"I forgot I had a notebook for homework in the first place!"

Ah well.

True happiness is something that you'd only treasure after you've been in really deep... crap I guess. Sure, anyone can be happy, regardless of any factor. Be it race, gender or age. How happy you are? No problem. That would only depend on the occasion. Did you find a dollar on the floor? Did you win a PSP in a lucky draw? But what I'm gonna talk about, is treasuring happiness, one of the few things people don't do and willfully enjoy it, without truly treasuring the happiness that they're feeling, and just... basking in the moment, ensuring that the happiness lasts for as long as possible, continuing it wherever you are.

Some people just joke around, hop around, bringing about them an aura of happiness. These people themselves might not even treasure happiness. Sure, they like it. They're good at bringing it around. But are they grateful? Its a very subtle difference I've just picked up recently. With this... feeling of happiness I've always longed for, I try to keep myself happy, or at least smiling, no matter what the situation. I might not be the best joker, or consoler to keep anyone, or everyone happy, nor am I willing, or want to be some busybody poking around for problems to solve, or at least thats what people think.

There's nothing wrong with being concerned with friends, is there?

As months pass by, I've done more than adequate thinking about my own life, about my emotions and why I feel that way. In return, I think I understand myself a whole lot better than I used to. And in a way, I guess I've reached that point of maturity in which I can be a true slacker; being laid back and taking life in its stride and solving whatever problems that get in my way, one at a time. And the calmness that comes with it is always welcome, no matter what the situation.

Of course, that doesn't mean my negative feelings have mellowed at all either. They still float back, haunting me in their irregular intervals. But this time, I understand why I feel this way. And in the end, there's really nothing to fret about. Its just me really wanting something I can't have yet. Besides, there's always plus sides to being single, right?

Har har, yeah. Big boss Shaft wants a girlfriend. D=.

Then again, who doesn't right? XD

Otherwise, single-hood isn't bad either. As a slacker, it leaves me with much, much more time to recharge my social energies, considering my 'secret', double identity as a true introvert...

And at the same time, being a total, psychotic lunatic who gets nicknamed as COOKIE MONSTER in class. >_>

Bloody Kelly. >_>

Oh well. I guess playful innocence is always an ingredient for laughs and happiness. In my opinion, its never good to rush maturity and shrug off childishness as unimportant and even worse, unnecessary. How the heck are you gonna relate to your kid when you get one later in your life? D=. And god, what fun is life without being childish once in awhile? Otherwise...

If all else fails, go back to the basics of life before maturity, before emotions and hormones started to fuck around with your head, mental control, feelings and motivation.

If all else fails, cry. Laugh. Hop around like you would back when you were little, maybe wanting a little attention, or lying your eyes are dry when you shed a tear and pasting that smile on your face. And even when its pasted on, its sincere, in a way you don't want your friends to worry.

Ah, such complications life has.

And yet, such simplifications childhood brings you.

What I been up tew.

SINCE I IS BORED.

I shall explain what I've been up to the past few months.

Well, other than just slacking my life away at home on my PSP, playing various games and the like, I've also made up my mind/decided to quit all MMORPGs and online games whatsoever. With that much time now free from the lack of anything to do, I now hang around a local Singaporean forum, namely SgCafe. I'm an active member now, and its been a good few weeks for me. I'd thank them for providing me with a good, healthy social environment to spend my time in, and for the friends they've brought me. I've become a much, much happier person now. ^^

ITE-wise, I've been made Class Monitor, and a few of them even call me Boss. >_>

Some call me Shasha.

RAWR.

I is picked on with the Sai Gang jobs. >_>

Dunno what else to do. Maybe I'll link to pictures next time? =3

REQUEST for them maybeh.

I is away~!

I IS BACK.

As much as possible, I'll try to make a few changes to the font to make it clear, so people can actually read, lawl. WELL. I shall revive this blog!... And with it, need to trim off my links as well, so I can add the ones that actually still are alive/matter, and remove the dead links. Hopefully, that;ll rid of a few ounces of emotional baggage as well. Otherwise, there's a whole lot of things that I have to explain. Many things have happened since the last time i posted (duh, 4 months isn't a short amount of time), so I'll try to make it short, since I don't think I can do much with this degree of fatigue.

I've half-flunked my O levels.

English - A1
Humanities (Social Studies/History) - C5
Pure Geog - C6
Science (Phy/Chem) D7
Mathematics (E Maths) E8
Malay - C6
CCA - A2 - 2 Bonus Points.

I have about 26 points (L1R4 I think)

I is now in ITE Clementi, after most of my appeals didn't pass through.

Business Administration class, but god. ITS SO FAR.

I is not the only Bedok Green Secondary student there, but I shan't disclose their names, just in case its a shame for them.

Otherwise, I'm enjoying every single moment in class. <3

More details later, maybe. I NEED TO SEE WHO READS. D=

Arr.

-Shaft.

Too long...

Its been too long. More than 2 months have passed since my last post. HAH, I doubt anyone's even reading this anymore. At any rate, I guess I'll post anyway, since I'm probably going to show this to more people in the future. But also, I've got nothing else to do other than to whittle my life away. Might as well do something "semi-productive", I guess.

I've struggled and done what I could for my "O" levels. Whatever regrets I had, I might as well fling 'em out of the window. Like I said, no point regretting. Might as well reap what I sow and handle it in the future, and plan better. I was in a slump for quite awhile, but with the abundance of time during the holidays, its given me more than enough time to think things over. Well, I can confidently say I'm much better than who I used to be, though I had to kill my own selfish reservations with things, I still have enough of myself to hate a few people who don't exactly deserve it. ;D

Though, I guess that doesn't really matter. Negative stuff never was fun to talk about to begin with. Well, with this much time, I've spent it all on my PSP, and friends whenever possible. Of course, cash has been a bitch as well, since my parents are gone for a month on their Pilgrimage to Mecca. I've been with my Sisters and my extended family, whom all have taken good care of each other. And well, cash being a bitch just means I have to watch how much I spend. Its not like they starve me or anything, mind you. ;D

Well, it has been two entire months after all, and I guess I do owe a few of you bored readers who finally check on what I've been doing. Well, not much, but I guess I'll list them out anyway.

The O levels were finally done, and most of us could barely wait for the Prom Night. I paid the $55 fee with my Hari Raya collections (That I can't even touch in the first place, so hey, its a win-win situation for me), and arrived at the location about an hour bloody early. Even so, the events began 30 minutes after the proposed meeting time, so there was plenty of time to cool off and relax in the hotel. The venue was the famed, Marina Mandarin Hotel. And god, did I love the Buffet. Damn. Top-class food with the prawns still quite "Rare" to preserve the crunchy-ness. Of course, not everyone liked the prawns like that. Can't blame 'em, most of us middle-class people tend to eat fully-cooked prawns that aren't even that "crunchy" in a sense.

Salmon, cakes, fruit... The buffet was heavenly.

The dance part though.... Fucked up. WHERE THE HELL WAS THE FORMAL DANCE MUSIC.

Screw RnB/rap/pop remixes. >_>


Well, other than that... If you want pictures, feel free to ask. Otherwise, I might post them up for the heck of it since no one might ask and I feel like posting them in the first place anyway. <_<>_>

The void in the heart, the space left behind by someone dear. That space that sucks the light out of you, allowing the dark negativity to take over. What a way to start a little entry. But thats on my mind right now. The negativity engulfs you and you start ranting it out on everyone else for not being able to fill up that void. For this moment, you just feel selfish, you just want nothing else but a little cure to ease this pain. Maybe just someone to fill this void. Anyone willing, even. Desperation sets in. But you know no one will want to. At least you're confident about the fact no one will.

You try to laugh it off, gaining a little bit of the light back. Gradually, you gain it all back, the void being forgotten and put away for now. But it never fails to haunt you on certain moments. Always.

The feeling that you have failed your own expectations. The fact that things COULD have been different, but they aren't. It was best for the other person, but you got nothing but hard, cold loneliness. Self-pity wallows in yourself. But you know its useless. It does nothing but to make you feel worse. Taking a deep breath, you move on, pasting a smile to your face as you face your friends who know nothing about it.

And thats life for me.

O levels tomorrow. 3 weeks of slaving my ass off.

I'm done.

Ah, the O levels are finally here. Stress levels are finally sky high (partially due to fasting) and procrastination is no longer an option. Fucking finally, I'm cornered. Can't procrastinate anymore. Gotta do what I need to do. Well, might not be that bad anyway. I just plan to do my best, study my best, get over with it and well, live a life. I don't really see this as an obstacle...

I'd rather save that for National Service approximately 4 years or so down the road. Oh yes, thats just sweet. Either way, this is important if I want to get into that Psychology course in Temasek Polytechnic. Having my desired course AND having it near my house is definitely a damned good bonus for me. I just hope the no cut-off points for it helps me out more than anyone else. Otherwise, I'll definitely do my best.

Of course, the same old problems still plague me, the little emotional "demons" of my past never fail to take up the correct opportunity to shove their hot little red tridents up my fat behind. God knows how they fit in anyway.

Sure as hell don't want to know.

This is one of the very rare personal posts I do, though I doubt anyone reads this often nowadays since I don't update it at all. Nothing new I guess.

Will say more if needed. Ciao.

Dude.

I made a theory.

Our Uniform = Brown in Colour.
"Bedok green secondary school = Bamboo tree"
Principal keeps emphasizing we do things = Good school reputation.
So therefore, we = Fertilizers for school.
So therefore, brown uniform.

Randomized. <3

-Shaft

How much can one actually hate him/herself? How much can such hate go? And even affect your own personal life? I guess it can. IT kills your confidence, your self-esteem and that, causes a chain of events that no one likes. Especially when it happens to them. Oh, it happens all the time for me, which is why I manage to shrug it off most of the time. Of course, I wouldn't say I'm totally immune to it. Its the opposite really; It happened so many times, I know what to feel, what to expect. Its just nothing new. You could say I'm half-numb to it already. Not really a good thing, but I'd wager it isn't that much of a bad thing after all.

With self-hate, comes doubting yourself, blaming yourself. Its the most justified manner of blaming. You can't give excuses to yourself; you know what they are and well, you deserve it. It is the worst kind of self-punishment someone can give him/herself. Cutting wrists? Nah, thats not emo. Thats being fucking retarded. Hope all wrist-cutters get tetanus and die of blood poisoning. Physical punishment sucks anyway.

Self-hate eh. Ponder.

My story.

DISCLAIMER: This is a boring post about my life so far. If you hate me, don't like me, or get bored with longwinded crap, then get the heck out.

My name is Muhammad Shafyuddin bin Mohamed Basir, currently living in Bedok and I am 16 years old. This, is my life story. I was born to a average-income family, living in Bedok North, my mother having a Cesarean, in which she said (pretty recently, within a month) because I was goddamned stubborn. And I guess I still am. I went to a PAP-funded Kindergarten, and I met some fabulous friends (2 of which are STILL my friends now), and we faught our fair share of battles, including a small fight with a few Primary school bully wannabes. I was once caught talking too much, and was asked to teach the class. That wasn't so bad. Pretty fun, if I remembered right.


And Primary One came soon after. It was not a bad thing, really. Except for the fact I keep losing my stationery. All the time too. I remembered I had almost none left, except for my pencils... And it was during a fateful spelling test, in which I had no other choice, but to use my finger, wet with saliva, to erase something. My teacher found out later, and slapped me, telling me it was disguting. I remembered just giving her a blank look of innocence...

Primary Two went by quickly, very quickly. I could barely remember much. It was pretty straightforward.... Primary Three was influential, getting stuffed in the last class, made me see people and things I usually wouldn't. Of course, I was still the chatty brat I was. The male teacher, his name was... Mr Hazri? He used the fabled 1 Metre rule to slap the palm of my hand... and the ruler broke. That gave me temporary fame.

Primary Four, two schools merged, and I was now a member of some other school. Now in a class filled with unfamiliar and familiar faces, it took awhile to get used to again. But heck, it was filled with fun and experiences. Playing that mean arse in Oliver Twist, and getting slapped in the face for creating my own acronym. "Pee Pee (PP)" AKA Private Parts. That wasn't too pleasent....

Primary Five was the... "climax" of my emotions in that school. A fabled transfer student, one with such beauty, that almost the entire level (Entire Primary Five Cohort), all the malay boys had fallen for her, except those in the higher classes. I was at the border however, and I too, fell victim to her charms. I got even more attracted, during a camp when I was drafted in the same team as she was. I truely had a crush then, an immense one. But I preferred to remain friends, to keep quiet. I was just not good enough for her. I was a geek then, mind you. Glasses, high pants, fat, unfit...

So she didn't know. Untill one fateful day, it leaked. I only told 3 people, and only one would be the bastard to spread it. And so, you had all the boys in the level who liked her, bugging me, teasing me. I ran so slow, I couldn't catch them at all. I had never felt so... messed up in my life. My self esteem was very low. I'd throw temper tantrums, cry, scream. Heck, I cried in class everyday for months, seperated myself from the rest, blaming myself for being so pathetically lonely and alone. It just sucked, lets put it at that.

*Insert chain of events here*

A year passed, and well, I calmed down. I gave up running (I threw my heavy file instead. Worked very well, I might add.) to beat them down, and well, I slowly just got more positive. The other boys in my class. Heck, I got less geeky by as the months passed, playing soccer and stuff, spending time after school. And soon, it didn't matter.

Secondary One came after the PSLE, and I decided to totally turn into a new leaf, to forget how "emo" I was back then. It worked for the first few months, and I quickly made friends, being friendly and all. It worked. Heck, I got in too comfortably, maybe. I even had a crush again soon enough, giving her a Valentine's card. Ah, 3 years ago. All of it slowly started to fade, as I started getting those negative thoughts again. And in a year, I got back to square one.

Secondary Two was a messy year. My emotions got the better of me so often, I was blinded, silent, self-hating. It just sucked. I had so few friends, so little motivation. It was a difficult period. My "second" life over the internet didn't make it any easier at all. It just amplified it over and over. Details on this? Ask me personally. I'm too friggin lazy to write it all out.

Secondary Three, I was seriously back to square one. Giving myself a mental reform, changing all I can, I tried to at least. It was successful. I'd never been so happy in a long, long while. The negativity would float back once in awhile, but it was usually repellable. In that same year, I almost had her. The girl I loved. And then I lost it. My fault. I'm still currently thinking about it, but hey. Gotta look ahead and move on. That did allow a gap for the negativity, which, is still present.

Now I'm in Secondary Four, a mixture of positivity and negativity, both sides conflicting. So what are the choices I'll make this year? So far, its has not been so good at all... Ah well. We'll see what the future holds. Out.

Boredom

Goddamn it, ever had those days when you really just had nothing to do? When you could literally sit infront of the computer monitor without much momvent, yet not really caring about it? I sometimes really wonder; these things really happen eh? Well, they're happening now, and its goddamned boring. Heck, its worse when you actually have a game or something to play, and you do the best thing ever concieved in an MMORPG; Sit down, sulk in loneliness and well... you actually alt+Tab out of the game and start surfing the net. No idea really, its just really sad. Something thats designed to waste your time, doesn't really waste it as well as it used to.

Yep, pretty sad when staring at your computer screen is mostly all you really do anymore.

Off to find more enjoyment eh?

And if you need porn; go wank untill it drops or something.

On a sidenote; Schools need to stop being so hypocritical, kthx.

Shaft's pimp guidelines to getting a girl (Probably never will be put in action)

1)Buy things the girl would use.
Obviously... A ring or rose, wouldn't do. A ring might get annoying/too plain after a while. A rose would wilt.
Get something that might be "equipped on something she uses. A strap for her cell? A keychain for it?
Or BUY something she will use.
A watch? A handphone?
Practicality. <3
Besides. Handphonesl costs a few hundred. A ring might cost around the same.

2)Bring her to places where the greatest scenery is, but with the least spending. Top of a hill with a packed up picnic? A bike ride to the beach? Stuff like that
Or star gazing. =3
Of course, I go for girls who love such things, I won't bore them to death on purpose >_>

3)Don't even say "I want to be your boyfriend." Because if she wants to, she'll stick with you. Its better to say "I want to be together with you.". And when introducing, going "She's my future wife/Girlfriend" is bad. Saying "We're together" is better

4) Focus on one girl, and take it one step at a time. Don't force her to do things, just suggest, but don't go all mushy either. Be yourself, prioritize her more than yourself, but reveal more about yourself as a person, not your achievements, not your upbringing. BUT do so with equivalent exchange from her. All in all, you are trying to get to know her better

You have to prove you're willing to take care of her, you have the ability to stand on your own two feet, you're willing to love her, make her happy... and its not all just about babies.

And yes yes, even if the ladies like the cute little trinkets, rings and the like… Give it to them when you actually mean something to her. Don’t rush it, but don’t take too long either…

Whatever happens, time will go on, everflowing, everlasting, never waiting. It is up to you to make the best out of things. Whatever happens, will drown in time. Memories will be there to stay on in your heart. Friends will be there for you for your soul, and for the creation of more memories. And family will be where you call home. Live your life knowing you lived it being yourself, and not as any other individual, and be proud about it.

-Shaft

Humans....

I don't know whether I'm happy even being human. I look at other people, I look at society, I look at myself. I understand that all of them aren't perfect, the least of it being me but... I mean, whats the point of being fucking mean to someone for no reason? To brand a person lower-class or stupid just becuase he has less intelligence and scores less for academical results? To brand them stupid just because they're in EM 3? In the normal stream?

No, these parents need to go and die. I'm not going to apologize if one of your parents happen to be on a high horse, because I sure as hell will hate them as much as anyone else. Because its parents like these who pressure the children who are in these lower streams. This will lead to the loss of morale and motivation to study on. This should NOT be the case. And because of that, the MOE will be phasing this streaming process out of the syllibus. Does that mean the less academically inclined will have to study the same crap with these "smarter" students? No. They'll get even worse marks. And whats the difference to them? None. Maybe they'll get more motivation to try harder but... We'll see.

Isn't the human race fantastic? With all its flaws, phyiscally and mentally? Aye aye.

And now the debate whether being either a girl or a boy is harder. For this, I shall speak up for the boys, and not for the girls. As usual, you're welcome to leave your comments.

Boys have pride, which I know some girls have, but as for boys, their pride is very... fragile. As fragile as any vain person could be. This differs on the guy though, I guess.

You know what, fuck it. I'll just stop here. =3

A reason to be here.

Correct me if I'm wrong, for my next post will be more towards the point of view of men, and less of women. HOWEVER, I am open to both point of views and I will sincerely appreciate both sides of this post. But since I'm a boy, I'm a afraid I'll have to do this in a slightly biased way, but girls can express themselves on the comments and tagboards anytime they wished. Most men are what you would call... Not as independant as you think. They need a reason to live, and they want to make sure that they'll do it. They want to make sure that they'll be happy doing it. Its a hidden weakness that most men have.

When men lose contact of that reason, the sole reason to stay awake, to stay there waiting for someone, they simply just lose any motivation. Don't get me wrong. They don't go pathetically emotional and start having suicidal thoughts. They're just more capable of sitting down, or lying down still, and staying there untill they have something to do, is all. They lose any general motivation to do much. They'll have enough to keep on living, but other than that, they'll lose any morale to do anything else.

This is most probably the lowest point in the life of most men. In these situations, the man would feel that he is of no use to anyone and that he can't do much. When he tries to do anything, he feels no sense of urgency, and infact, he doesn't even care much. Although this might differ depending on the task and who he's doing it for. Homework would probably be left behind, long forgotten.

Oh hey, guess what. I'm out of juice. If you want to know more, just drop a message. Maybe I'll write more.